I bet if I killed myself right now none of you would give a flying fuck
I don’t understand why he gave up. Everything was so perfect and started to work out for the first time in a long time and then he just ended it. I don’t even know how to explain how I feel right now. I tell everyone i’m fine and over it but i’m not. I love him so much and it’s going to take me forever to get over 3 years of being with him. I literally think about him every second of every day and I retrace my steps thinking back what I could have done better to make him stay. The worst part of this all is that I know 100% that this is all my fault and could have prevented it from happening all along but I was too stupid and selfish to even think about losing him. Thinking about him with another person makes me want to be dead. It kills me every single time I hear his name or he texts me to bitch me out and to tell me he’s hooked up with another girl and that I was a waste of time. I know he still cares and that he loves me I just don’t understand why he is doing this to me. It is literally tearing me apart. I just want to be dead.
